Guru is the true Shiva Shakti
The grace of Shree Bhagwan Ramana Maharishi connected me to Shri Vidya and Shakti in the year 2016 which came as a shock to me as he embodied the Shiva tattva so strongly to me and many others I knew. Back then, I was a hard core Shiva fanatic. Confused why the Shiva Guru was leading me to Shakti through a set of mystic books, teachers and occurances, I still surrendered to the unfolding and started walking the steps of Shakti discoveries one by one as they were shown to me. I undertook many saadhanas and underwent deep cleansing in the next few years and found the kundalini shakti alive and dancing in me.
In the year 2018 I began to have a deep spiritual misery where I was torn in my devotion to the Guru as Shiva and Shakti as Lalitatriphrasundari. Internally I was in deep confusion and found myself weeping often in my meditations and in front of Shree Bhagwan as to why he had made me stand at this bifurcation of consciousness and begged for a crystal clear understanding of what was happening to me. This phase continued for a year and it was painful and dark. I prevailed awaiting an inner answer out of this conflict.
By mid 2019, on a certain day, I had a vision. Bhagwan Ramana was gulped up by Lalitatriphrasundari Devi and suddenly there was an immense white flash of light. I did not understand this vision and decided to share it with an advanced Srividya saadhak who was also connected deeply to Bhagwan Ramana. And within a few hours, a mantra of Ramana Sundari ( The fused transcdental consciousness of Shree Bhagwan Ramana Maharishi & Devi Lalitatriphrasundari” was revealed with this image and also proper dhyanshlola and nyasas. It was now clear that in my chitta, they had fused as the spiritual misery completely lifted in the next few days. I felt no conflict or torn between Shiva and Shakti as I saw them as one now. I felt peace and joy rise in my heart and became satisfied with this result. To corraborate this experience, I undertook a 6 month saadhna where I chanted 1 lakh japas of the Ramanasundari mantra and meditated on the form. This completed my inner experience and deeply ingrained the understanding and experience of nonduality.
Since then, I have kept quiet about my experience ,not sharing about it much as I felt it would be attacked or criticized for being mundane and unsupported by any intellectual or spiritual source or scriptural teaching, books etc. Bhagwan s grace has been flowing like a clear stream of purity and it did not matter if anyone knew of my experiences. What did it matter to others ? That’s what kept me silent so many years.
I often wondered why Bhagwan had consecrated a Mahameru at mother’s shrine at Ramanashramam and did some advanced researches. Through sources and intuition, I felt fully sure that he had a deep understanding of Srividya and was himself purely the Divine mother. I often had visions of a similiar space where Bhagwan and Devi would co exist just like how they do at his abode at Thiruvanamallai. But I had no aggression or push in me to manifest anything of this sort.
About a month back, I was introduced to a sadhak who requested for a energized shree yantra for her new ashram coming up at rishikesh. I happily agreed and facilitated that. Within 2 days of our meeting, I was compelled to visit the ashram premises at rishikesh and found Bhagwans living presence in the whole project. We consecrated a big Mahameru of 18 kgs at Abhayam ashram through divine chantings of Lalitasahasranama and joyfully enjoyed the ceremony.
It did not end at that. I was then guided to create a frame of Ramanasundari which was also consecrated along with other murtis in the temple of the Abhayam ashram through appropriate Vedic procedures of poojas and rituals and homas. It was such a joyful celebration and sacredly arranged by Bhagwan Ramana himself.
Now this beautiful temple with the one and only unique Ramanasundari form along with a Mahameru at Abhayam ashram stand emitting divine vibrations and it is my deepest wish that Abhayam ashram will attract many genuine saadhaks from across the world to partake of Shree Ramanasundari s grace and benevolence.
After years of faith and pure love, The Guru has granted the nondual Advaita experience to me within and without both. It’s a completion for me and a starting point for many who may have been seeking the Shiva Shakti union alike. May all know the bliss of the self. May all know the self and Guru as one alone.
For those who wish to know more about Ramanasundari, please visit this link: https://www.myramanamaharishi.com/ramana-sundari-the…/
Visit Ramanasundari temple at Abhayam Ashram, rishikesh, India